Sometimes, you wish people around you treated you more nicely and respectfully. You think you are mad at them after they say or do something you don't like, but as soon as they act a bit nice to you, you forget that feeling of dislike.

Sometime later, this situation will repeat itself, and you feel like you're at a disadvantage since you can never hate them, but at the same time want to display your frustration and discontent so that they will treat you in a better way...




Most of the time, it's very little things that get on my nerve and I don't tell people I get annoyed at those things because I know it's not something to be annoyed at. But even when I hide the fact, that negative feeling will remain and build up. I don't know how to deal with this. I can neither express it and get criticized it's irrational or hold it in and not feel resentment.


Wow, it sounds like I have a boyfriend and I'm feeling this way toward him. But I feel this way toward any person...like my professors and strangers =_=;

Btw I really want a boyfriend now. REALLY. But then, I'm not interested in/attracted to guys in general. What do I want, a fantasy boyfriend? I think it's for physiological reasons =_=. I'm at the age when you're supposed to look for a mate...or something like that lol.